What do children do when they have nothing else left? No one safe to turn to, No one to go and tell , No one to protect them>, No one to help them.
My 14 yr old brother N-
kneeling in front of me , while I sit on his bed staring out the bedroom window. Crying and Sobbing with his face all red, saying ” I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry “ over and over again. Lost in Guilt and Confusion/ not knowing how to stop himself. N. turned to alcohol and heavy drugs , juvenile crime, A teen cult
My 17 yr old brother has not stopped sexually abusing me and in desperation I went down stairs and stole a butter knife from the kitchen and hid it under his bed. I remember
depressed / desperate . N was was coming down from drugs& When we were alone in his room, I took out the knife from under the bed and tried to stab him. “
Come on do it” he said laughing…
I was trying to save myself and he had nothing to live for.
It’s unusually warm here for Feb, 1 2012/ feels about 60 degrees at 8:16 in the morning. Starting from this last Sunday, I am fostering a small puppy that was found in a dumpster.
I joined the Nashville Tn, Occupy Movement about a 2 weeks after the Slut Walk.
Of Course, I am a Pacifist and if there is any Violence on the side of the Occupy Movement in Nashville: I will take time to re-reconsider my involvement with them.
In the mean time, I find them to be good group of diverse people. Diversity has its challenges however, I believe that when diverse people do come together in good faith for dialogue good is always possible and growth is always the outcome.
I have been fortunate to have met the Homeless People of Nashville in ways that is different from most opportunities. I have seen my self mirrored in parts of their stories and histories/herstories and thru sharing parts of mine I have tried to mirror back to them that a good future awaits them.
It is an eye opener to comprehend that here in the United States we have young and homeless pregnant women and many homeless teens.
I have more to write
but look forward to such a lovely sunny day !!
- Two Women, One Pregnant, Throw Down at Occupy Nashville Protest (thehollywoodgossip.com)
- Occupy Nashville: Haslam’s Hatching An Egg (my.firedoglake.com)
- Just for you, Occupy Nashville…. (ontpaine.wordpress.com)
” De-construct Language
as an act of Spiritual Rebellion”
William S. Burroughs
” Re-claim the dignity of you own experience”
I am singing poetry of many voices/ Wilders , ” Our Town”/ ee cumming’s pretty how town/ Angelou and my very own coney island of the mind.
How is it that Language can be spoken here? Where it has been broken.
Did you hear me? The sign on the door says, ” Language Broken Here”
Imperialism of the mind/ Colonization of the body
and twice removed
stand close to the
and listen to the sounds of gurgles
Oh Breath Maker !
come life !
become votive candles
flickering in reflection
I stand here stripped bare
——————————————– dc 2011
I have been busy writing a lot of poetry lately..
write your own.
Euphoric from last nights
My brother rummages the dumpster & finds a
a moomintroll delicacy
Sargent pepper’s star-gazer
before he fell.
Ice Cream/ Baskin Robbins/ Rocky Road
Looking up at him
I see rotting food
not strawberries .. not rice crispies
just this mornings hungry promise
going pop pop pop
like the breaking of
- Poetry in Prison (writerswritedaily.wordpress.com)
That house on Cherry Lane
did you see
after all the dolls and teddy bears
the cell doors free.
The sun rose in the basement
and the walls painted themselves the
fresh color of lemons
Outside the running dolls
have turned into butterflies.